*bashfully peeks head around corner* Hi, guys. It's been a while.
My absence from this blog wasn't premeditated. But it was needed. I wasn't in a place where I felt like what I was writing mattered. Instead of writing about one of my passions, I felt like I was writing to meet a deadline or quota of some sort, producing products of which I wasn't proud. And this, I realized, was something I needed to change.
So I started creating outside of this blog. I wrote in a journal, knit a few hats, started using Sculpey clay to create tiny monsters (more on this in a future post), and even painted a bit. I've been researching how to sew a quilt and watching videos on woodworking (this is a pipe dream, but man, do I love the smell of hardware stores).
And what I learned was that all of this made me feel so much happier than typing up something super fast that I didn't care about. These projects required patience and were for me and no other audience. They helped me learn that I could create in different mediums and with different moods.
I used to live under the false assumption that all great art was produced from pain. The best songs written by broken hearts, the best poems penned by anguished souls, the best creations a marriage of depression and anxiety. You get the idea. And while these emotions are valid and shouldn't be overlooked, I learned I don't need to be sad to create.
That's my mantra for 2015: I don't need to be sad to create.
And I want to make my blog posts count. Even if this means only posting once a week or once a month, I want what I write to matter to me. We've all heard the old adage "quality over quantity" - I'm sticking to this. I'm going to post what I care about and take time on my posts. I'm pulling from all my emotions when I write, and focusing on creating in any mood, particularly happiness.
*cracks knuckles* Let's do this.