I'm taking the Duck & Owl theme of falling literally and choosing to talk about my fear of falling behind.
It's everywhere, the signs that everyone seems to be moving ahead. Friends are getting married, moving away, getting jobs and professing all of their successes via every available social network. I am happy for them, sure, but part of me always worries about my own future. I'm still living at home, I'm freelancing part time, I'm single and I'm not sure where my path is headed on any given day of the week. The fear that I'm somehow not ever going to accomplish anything, that I'm falling behind where I should be at 24 plagues me every few seconds when I'm not thinking about the Vampire Diaries premiere.
Kaitlyn talked about eliminating this fear of falling, and that's something I'm working on, always. I'm not sure what the sage advice is for us young souls who can't seem to get our foot in the door. I haven't figured it out yet, but in the meantime I've tried to learn to be content with where I'm at.
I'll admit it, I am a homebody. I love my family and I love being near them. The time I've spent at home (because the rent is too damn high) may not have pushed me any further ahead than my peers, but it has taught me A LOT about myself.
Two weeks ago my seemingly healthy dad had to have open heart surgery. Now he's unable to do basic things including driving and using certain parts of his upper body. My mom had to go back to work before he was fully recovered, so work from home me has been helping me. It made me wonder if I had managed to step ahead, if I wasn't falling behind on my terms who would be there to help my dad?
I'm trying not to worry about falling behind. I'm trying to stay positive because I'm figuring out things on my own terms, albeit my own slow terms. In the meantime I think I'll be inspired by the Duck & Owl girls, I'll look out my window enjoy the fall leaves and not worry about what's ahead. I may think I'm falling behind, but it's just a season like fall, and it's going to pass.